I’ve sat down several times to write this post. And every time I’ve shut down the computer instead.
Because how do you put into words that you’ve all but sidestepped your faith over the last few months? How do you bare your mighty Christian soul and admit such a thing?
Oh, the judgement… the ridicule… or dare I say, understanding?
If I had to guess, you’ve been in my shoes. That season of life that trips you up when you least expect it and you find yourself in a position where you. just. can’t.
You try to read your Bible, but you can’t seem to get anything off the page.
You try to pray, but you can’t seem to find the words.
You need to go to church, but you can’t seem to get out of bed.
At best, you’re disconnected.
And if you’re lucky like me, you have amazing people in your life who see your struggle and try to speak life into you… And if you’re like me, you didn’t want to hear anything they have to say. It’s seasons like this where you don’t want to hear of God’s goodness, or His faithfulness, or His timing.
Because you already know all that. You already know His promises.
But you. just. can’t. put on your pretty little Christian face right now.
Have you ever been there, my friend?
I sure have.
Sometimes, I still am.
While it’s seasons like this where we. just. can’t… It’s also seasons like this that we just have to. Because while we serve a loving God who is always going to welcome us with open arms, there is also an enemy who is just looking for the opportunity to wreak havoc in your life.
Like a thief in the night, he will sneak in and plant doubt, anger, jealousy, discontentment, confusion, and the like.
So, what do we do in times like this? When you. just. can’t?
You do it anyway.
I know what you’re thinking… It’s probably the same thoughts that went through my mind when my dear friend Taten told me that. And while I initially ignored his advice because I didn’t want to hear it, he was right.
Now, I’m stubborn, so don’t be like me. But do believe me when I say, it’s okay.
It’s okay if you’ve wandered away.
It’s okay if you’re having a hard time finding your way back.
It’s okay if you feel guilty, or ashamed, or unworthy.
But the good news is, you don’t have to feel that way.
So dear friend, crack open that Bible or open up that devotional app on your phone. Have a chat with Jesus. Call that friend who is always quick to listen. And just know, you are not alone in your struggles.
I know you. just. can’t. right now, but… Do it anyway.